a child was meant to be

though failures and disappointments will be discouraging

the child was coming

and although her initial appearance will be unbelievable

unpredictable

and daring

she will prove that her existence was determined by fate

eight years of trying intertwined with shame and anger

tears cannot express those mournful and exhausting years

doubts of an existence

 of a future

of a life to be born

one moment was all it took for the stars to perfectly align themselves with the sun

and what the woman had yearned for

was before her very eyes

months later a swollen belly appeared

defying what was told to her

that her uterus would betray her

that it would be a pit of emptiness

a deflated organ of the body whose purpose can never be fulfilled

abandoned they called it

what a lie it was

for she didn’t know

that her “pit of sorrow” would soon be the creator of life

the girl growing in her will be her glory

time awaited, the ticking of the clock

seconds dragged on and seemed like hours

one magical moment was all it took

the infamous water breaking

would allow the two to part physically but,

their hearts still unite

showing such love and tenderness

showing such beauty in their deep connection

the girl will eventually arrive

limp

colorless

lifeless

“dead” they called her

but how they were wrong

the woman was in misbelief as she knew the truth

she knew the girl’s arrival will be difficult

just as how it had been eight years ago

 but she knew what the girl was capable of

she knew how strong her daughter would be for the woman was her mother

she endured a life of pain and bottled anger

she was mistreated and injured

internal scars never heal, so they say

the strength in these two bodies would be enough to move mountains

to change hearts

and to defy the impossible

they had only met for what seems like seconds

but it was as if they’ve known each other a lifetime

in a way they did

their hearts have always been familiar with one another

and in the depths of their minds

they knew

that they were made for each other

the girl showed such defiance

for she proved them all wrong

she took a breath

followed by a cry

and a small flinch in her foot

her actions shocked the doctors

mirroring her future as her mere presence will astound them all

the woman graciously put her to her chest

enveloping her with love and pride

but not misbelief

she soon became a symbol of miracles

of prosperity

of power and success

and intellect

a creature of nobility and brilliance

that’s who the woman sought the girl to be

she was made to inspire

and her pride speaks with no fear

〜 This poem was inspired by my mother’s difficulty in conceiving a child and therefore describes me in the most accurate way. It conveys the strength she had while overcoming the physical and mental burdens. She endured a lot with not only the fertility drugs, but also the constant pressure and stress from family and in-laws that came along with it. This moment in my mother’s life represents who I am today because her strong energy and resilience was always radiated to me. She has been, and always will be, a key player in shaping my personality and outlook on the world. My mother is the woman who molded my behavior and taught me everything I know today. Her mistakes and obstacles are ultimately those who brought me to this world and her failures are seen as my successes.

I shared her brave story, and here’s mine:

just as the woman predicted

her daughter will make marks on this world

that no other being has made before

she will be criticized and degraded

doubted and questioned

but no poisonous flower would dare enter her delicate garden

negativity does not comply with her demeanor

for she was born with a heart of steel

she showed strength and perseverance

 in her first few seconds of life

and will continue to do so for the rest of her existence

she radiates talent and bravery

and always accepted what the world had to offer

though people may underestimate her capability

she grows and flourishes

and she may occasionally fall

but she always climbs

she is a consistent symbol of accomplishment

and she doesn’t need to explain herself

because her successes speak louder than words